The Sweet Escape

Monday, July 2

After hearing the latest about amanda, i went up to my room, feeling so moody.

the Strong, brave outgoing amanda i know,has been burdened with all the stress, pain,anguish,cramps,swelling.

the first time in 3 years, i knelt down by my bedside, and i prayed and cried out to God.
"Why God? Why Amanda. We are your children, doesn't it hurt you to see Amanda suffer so much. Take it away, take all her suffering away".

soon, i started singing, one of Amanda's favourite song
"God of wonders beyond our majesty, you are holy, holy"
"Precious Lord reveal your heart to me,
Father hold me, hold me

"You are so faithful, O Lord".

i got angry, frustrated. The word "WHYWHYWHY".kept popping out in my mind.
at first, when doctors confirmed her lupus, i was
praying for her to be able to be discharged soon, and that her life will resume to normal. it was a"Oh she has to be on medicine her whole life".

But now, i'm praying God will keep her precious life, and not take it away.

However i blamed God, verses kept coming into my head" For i know the plans i have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm". "Be still and know i am God". "Whatever HE does, it will be for the good of his children".

it's hard for me as her friend,her sister in Christ, but its a 100x more harder for a mum, and her 2 brothers.

Please pray for Amanda Ho.That God will preserve her precious little life, and rid her of all the illnesses and her pain.we must acknowledge that yes, we have to trust God. But i feel that we have to claim God's promises, and pray that a miracle will happen, to Amanda.

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